Blond Monment!!!

This whole week as been slow. I only had to work the day job so I've had a lot of extra time on my hands...I'm bored beyond belief. I've done laundry and run all my errands but I have nothing to fill my time with. I completely caught up on my sleep and have read 2 books in the last few days.

Besides work I'm feeling sluggish. Balloon guy is being distant and playing hard to get...which only makes me eager to see him even though I'm not really into him its the chase. I'm such a guy sometimes. Then with things ending badly with Hoff and then starting up with Whiskey its been a little crazy.

On one hand I'm digging Whiskey and when we met for drinks on Sunday we talked for a few hours and then went and played some pool. It was so nice. It was pleasant evening and there was flirting and major kissing. He has a aggressive way of kissing that took me by surprise but that totally turned me on. He completely took control and let me know who was boss...this is something that I'm usually down for at least with someone I know and trust...from him it just worked on scaring me. It was too much force so I called it night and left but did make plans to meet up again.

Our second time we planned on staying in at his place...let me just say this is not normal for me but I was game to hang out with him. I was prepared for a heavy make out session but knew that it wasn't going to end up in the bedroom. I was stupid. I know better usually and I'm still upset that I put myself in a dangerous place. Now it didn't go there...but he wanted it too and it was very apparent as soon as I walked in.

First the DVD player for the movie we were going to watch (umm there was no movie we ended watching some flick he had) wasn't hooked up to the tv. He also had his pants unzipped which he claimed wasn't on purpose when I pointed it out to him later. But he put mood lighting on and as soon as we were both sitted he went to ramming my face. He was so take charge I was wrapped up in his arms before I even comprehended that he had lifted me and adjusted me into a more comfortable position. He was strong. He was fast and very controlling. It was the kind of kiss I image when I think of a forced situation. He even grabbed my face with his hand and squeezed my mouth to kiss it. He then started to grab at my breasts and ass. He was moving so quickly I was not prepared and so I started to freak out. I started to push him off and struggle against him...it took a bit for him to take the hint.

After that there was so much tension it was bad...in hindsight I should have just left. But I stuck around and we ended up talking and watching the movie. Both of us not doing more than touching after the intense make out session. I didn't want to led him on and I guess he didn't want to kick me out for not being giving it up. On my way out the door an hour later he pushed me up against the wall and again kissed me this time in a gentle manner.

Needless to say I was stupid to put myself alone with a guy I didn't know and I'm so thankfully that he backed off.

God I hate being single....I really just want to cuddle and watch a movie!!