New Pleasures

Last night was my first night training for my new role with my second job. I got promoted so that I’m now a manager of the front lanes and guest service for a large retail chain. I have only been working as a cashier since Nov. and I’ve exceed my own expectations for a second job. I love it and I look forward to going in. I know that though I may be tired and a little sore after my shift that I did in fact derive pleasure from my efforts.


I am thoroughly nervous in taking on this new role. I’ve never been in a position of authority before. I now am the person to go to for minor issues, customer complaints, and a number of other situations. Not only that but I have power to a degree for the first time. I’m so used to being the lowest person on my team and smothering my need for perfection that now when given a chance to shine its mildly uncomfortable. I’m deathly terrified of “being too big for my britches, something I was constantly told as a child. Being a manager these are issues I need to face and overcome. Thank goodness I’m proactive and aware, almost to a fault.


I have never been one comfortable receiving praise or a pat on the back, my normal response is to blush and grin while nodding my head. In fact in a team meeting with my day job I not only blushed but went hot all over after my boss, a women that is so intense with her work that it intimidates me, said that I was doing a exceptionally job on my new project. Not only that but my whole team who was there backed her up. In the same breath they put down another contractor who was overwhelmed with said project and thus removed herself from it.
I believe I will do great things in my new role once I man up and get over my nerves. I’m giddy with delight that I have been promoted so early and that my leaders are excited and please with my work. Its crazy that I not only holding down a full time day job but that I’m working a full time second job as well. My time is busy and productive and very much rewarding. I never would have guess that retail was my calling but I’m thriving!!!